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(continuing from here)

I should have asked. It was stupid for me to even... the entire dumb point of this-

[he was getting muddled and flustered, his alcohol infused mind making it hard for him to say what he needed to. but he also didn't want asahi mad at him, because for some reason he felt like he would. and a part of him just wanted to enjoy this closeness and the warmth of asahi's hand on his bare back.

it was so soothing.]

I wanted to send you a sexy pic as soon as gran and my sister left for some girly spa weekend. I'm home alone and thought it would be fun. But... I kept thinking about it and I was getting nervous because my body isn't good enough, not for pictures like... that. But it's what couples do, right? Flirty pictures.

S-So...

I started drinking until I got the courage-

[and it hits him all at once and the realization stings.]

...to like what I saw in the pictures I took for you.

But I just ended up forcing you into something you don't want and I keep doing that. And you're still so warm, and sweet and perfect.

[fingers curling against his shirt. he hated this side of himself, a side he didn't really know he had until lately.]

You deserve so much better than this, Asahi-san.