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(西谷夕) ⋆ Nishinoya Yuu ([personal profile] praeses) wrote in [community profile] vacancysign2016-02-07 03:16 am

[TFLN] noya --> asahi

(continuing from here)

I should have asked. It was stupid for me to even... the entire dumb point of this-

[he was getting muddled and flustered, his alcohol infused mind making it hard for him to say what he needed to. but he also didn't want asahi mad at him, because for some reason he felt like he would. and a part of him just wanted to enjoy this closeness and the warmth of asahi's hand on his bare back.

it was so soothing.]


I wanted to send you a sexy pic as soon as gran and my sister left for some girly spa weekend. I'm home alone and thought it would be fun. But... I kept thinking about it and I was getting nervous because my body isn't good enough, not for pictures like... that. But it's what couples do, right? Flirty pictures.

S-So...

I started drinking until I got the courage-

[and it hits him all at once and the realization stings.]

...to like what I saw in the pictures I took for you.

But I just ended up forcing you into something you don't want and I keep doing that. And you're still so warm, and sweet and perfect.

[fingers curling against his shirt. he hated this side of himself, a side he didn't really know he had until lately.]

You deserve so much better than this, Asahi-san.
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[personal profile] quailing 2016-02-07 07:03 pm (UTC)(link)
[ that's... a lot to process. and he feels flattered and confused and guilty all at once -- which is sort of a confusing soup of emotions to sort through, so. he blinks slowly as nishinoya's rambling trails off, even though the motion of his hand on the other boy's back never stills. ]

... Nishinoya. [ gently, leaning down to press a gentle kiss to the top of the other boy's head. ] First of all, shouldn't I be the one who gets to decide what I deserve? And I pick you. I'd pick you every time that I got the chance.

[ and he's too focused on nishinoya to even fluster about what he's saying -- instead, he just says what's really on his mind, what he really feels. ] ... and, um. As for the other stuff... what would make you think your body isn't good enough? I mean, if you ask me, your body is --

[ ... okay, here's the flustering. ] ... w-well, um... you know. M-More than enough. Way more.
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[personal profile] quailing 2016-02-07 08:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Every time.

[ and he wishes he was better at expressing it -- he wishes he could describe that nishinoya's really been the only person he's ever felt this way about, that there's simply no comparison between him and anyone else. sometimes it feels less like a choice than it does a simple matter of gravity, like he's a planet responding to noya's charismatic pull and leeching off the bright warmth of his star. ... but there's no way asahi would get all of that out without hitting some sort of critical mass of embarrassment on the way, and besides --

you drive me crazy ends up making him splutter and blush and completely lose his train of thought. ]


... a-ah, I think I understand. I mean... [ and he presses his own hand on top of the one nishinoya has splayed over his chest, hoping he can make the fluttering of his heart felt that much more clearly. ] ... you drive me crazy, too. In a really good way.

S-So...! That's why... I, um... I feel like I have to be careful?
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[personal profile] quailing 2016-02-07 08:52 pm (UTC)(link)
I know!

[ oh god, maybe he's not saying it correctly!!! ]

I just... what I mean is... you're very important to me. And so is -- [ a slightly vague gesture with his free hand, trying to encompass their relationship. ] -- this.

... s-so I want to try as hard as I can not to make any mistakes. [ and oh my god does he try. ] ... I know that's probably impossible for someone like me, but.. I still want to work at it! W-With everything that I have.
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[personal profile] quailing 2016-02-08 10:12 pm (UTC)(link)
... you're probably right.

[ and he can't help but tighten his grip on nishinoya, just a little, and nuzzles down into the top of his head. all his earlier worries seem a little ridiculous now, with noya wrapped comfortably around him like there's nowhere else he'd rather be. ] ... I just... well, um...

I g-guess I'm always a little worried that if... we fight...

[ there's a little bit of a squirm, and part of him feels like backing off completely on the idea of admitting this, but. ] ... it might make you forget what you ever saw in me? In the first place.

... and I'd... [ well. ] ... I really don't want that to happen.
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[personal profile] quailing 2016-02-09 12:26 am (UTC)(link)
[ ... and all of that is more than asahi knows how to handle.

because, honestly, nishinoya is one of the only people in his life that likes him for who he is -- he pushes him to get better, to improve, but never makes him feel like he needs to step one foot outside the bounds of being himself. nishinoya cups both hands around asahi's heart of glass and protects it instead of trying to beat it into something stronger; he still likes him even though he's shy and wimpy and hopelessly clumsy when it comes to every new stage of their relationship.

nishinoya cut through everything and saw him, and it was (inexplicably) the person he liked the most. ]


I'll try.

[ and nishinoya is getting a ridiculously snug bear hug whether he likes it or not, because asahi can feel happy tears pricking at the corner of his eyes, and he... he can't figure out what he did to deserve this, how he ever got so lucky. it should be wrong to feel this happy when he hasn't done anything to earn it, but... here he is. and here's nishinoya, saying that he plans to stick it out no matter what. ]

I'll try not to worry, I j-just love you so much that I --
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[personal profile] quailing 2016-02-09 12:27 am (UTC)(link)
[ WAIT WHAT DID HIS GIANT DUMB MOUTH JUST SAY ]

Geh --!!
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[personal profile] quailing 2016-02-09 12:29 am (UTC)(link)
Oh no...!

[ and now he's letting go of nishinoya just so that he can press both hands to his face and hide, cheeks blazing scarlet. ]

I didn't mean to say it this way! I h-had something all planned out, and...!

[ WHYYYYYY ] I-I'm so sorry! This... th-this wasn't romantic at all!
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[personal profile] quailing 2016-02-09 01:22 am (UTC)(link)
[ he's letting the other boy pry his hands away, even though he can still feel his face burning crimson. ]

Y-You... you really don't mind? I-I mean...! I've heard people say that you shouldn't say it too soon, so I...

[ ... flustered rambling. ] ... I w-wanted to plan something that would be really s-special, and...

[ waaaagh. ] It just slipped out!
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[personal profile] quailing 2016-02-09 02:08 am (UTC)(link)
[ there's no way that a kiss from nishinoya could ever gross him out. ... which is why he stops spluttering (like an idiot) long enough to tip his chin up and catch his mouth in a firmer, lingering kiss. and that settles his nerves a little, at least enough to get him to stop blurting out apologies. when he breaks it off, he lifts a hand to comb his fingers affectionately through the younger boy's hair, pressing another kiss to his forehead. ]

... you know...

[ since it's probably better to change the subject a little before he ends up blurting it out again. ] ... I wouldn't mind if you just called me 'Asahi'.

... I m-mean! Only if you want!
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[personal profile] quailing 2016-02-09 02:52 am (UTC)(link)
[ immense relief. and he smiles back softly, eyes warm. ]

I'm glad. It sounds...

... um, a little less formal this way, I think.

[ and hopefully it means they'll be mistaken less often for father and son out in public......... . . . ]
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[personal profile] quailing 2016-02-10 01:54 am (UTC)(link)
[ he can see the way the alcohol is affecting the other boy -- the droop in his eyelids and the slight slur of his voice -- but he finds it more endearing than anything else. so he goes back to gently rubbing at the nape of noya's neck, massaging the muscles around his spine with gentle circles of his thumb. ]

Th-The pictures weren't dumb! [ flushing... a little... but he feels like it's something he needs to say. ] ... and, um... if you're sure that it's s-something you're comfortable doing...

... I w-wouldn't mind getting more?

[ ... okay, hang on. he's an embarrassing shade of crimson. ]
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[personal profile] quailing 2016-02-10 01:55 am (UTC)(link)
B-But I... I really like this, too.

[ still embarrassed, but petting nishinoya is soothing, so. he keeps doing that, focusing on the gentle motions of his hand. ] ... so maybe what I'm saying is... y-you should do whichever one you want? Since I like them both.
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[personal profile] quailing 2016-02-10 03:41 am (UTC)(link)
Of course.

[ and he can't help but smile at that, voice soft and eyes impossibly warm. ]

I'll stay as long as you'd like me to. [ and then, with just a hint of a tease in his voice: ] It'll be easier to make sure that you drink plenty of water tomorrow this way.